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Introduction​

J.D. Vance opens Hillbilly Elegy by acknowledging the unlikeliness of his memoir. “I find the existence of the book you hold in your hands somewhat absurd,” he admits, noting that in the broader world he hasn’t accomplished anything legendary. Yet, by graduating from Yale Law School, Vance feels he achieved something extraordinary given his roots in a poor Rust Belt family with an absent father and an addicted mother. He wrote this memoir to explain “the psychological impact that spiritual and material poverty has” on children like him from Appalachia. Vance stresses that his story is not a political study but a personal family history – an insider’s account of growing up “hillbilly” in Greater Appalachia. He openly states that nearly every person in his book is deeply flawed, but “there are no villains in this story. There’s just a ragtag band of hillbillies struggling to find their way”. From the outset, Vance frames his journey as one of escaping despair through upward mobility while being haunted by the demons of the life [he] left behind.

Vance introduces the culture of his people – the “hillbillies” of Greater Appalachia. This region stretches from Kentucky and the coal country of the Appalachian Mountains up into Ohio’s Rust Belt. The hillbillies are white working-class folks with deep family loyalties and fierce pride, often with no college education and bleak economic prospects. He notes that by surveys they are the most pessimistic group in America, despite often facing fewer formal barriers than some minority communities. According to Vance, part of this pessimism comes from social isolation and a culture that “encourages social decay instead of counteracting it”. He gives an example of a lazy coworker (whom he calls “Bob”) and Bob’s girlfriend who would skip work and take long breaks, reflecting a broader trend of learned helplessness and cynicism among his peers. Vance argues that these attitudes feed a cycle of blame and stagnation: many hillbillies claim to value hard work, yet feel the system is rigged, so “why try at all?”. This memoir, then, is Vance’s attempt to honestly examine his upbringing amid Appalachian values, family trauma, and the elusive American Dream.

Throughout the introduction, Vance grapples with the duality of his identity. He fondly remembers his ancestral home in the Kentucky hills (Jackson, KY) as the true source of his family’s culture, even while he grew up mostly in Ohio. In Jackson, he felt he belonged – “my great-grandmother’s house, in the holler, in Jackson, Kentucky” was always “home” no matter where else they lived. He recalls asking his beloved grandmother (Mamaw) why everyone in Jackson stopped and stood respectfully when a funeral procession passed. “Because, honey, we’re hill people. And we respect our dead,” Mamaw told him. This mix of neighborly decency and proud tradition coexists with harsher realities: high poverty, rampant prescription drug addiction, and a tendency for hillbillies to glorify their virtues while ignoring their vices. Vance sets the stage for the chapters to come by admitting his people’s contradictions. He loves their loyalty and humor, but he doesn’t shy away from their propensity for violence or denial. His goal is to paint a full portrait of a culture “that overstates the good and understates the bad” in itself. Armed with both statistical insight and raw personal stories, Vance invites readers to understand the beautiful, troubled world of hillbilly America through his own life story.

Chapter 1: Family Roots in Jackson and Middletown​

As a child, J.D. Vance felt split between two worlds. He spent summers and many weekends in the holler of Jackson, Kentucky, at his great-grandmother’s home – a place he considered his true home – while the rest of the year he lived in industrial Middletown, Ohio. In Jackson, young J.D. was surrounded by an extended clan and community that knew his family’s name. He was proud to be known as the grandson of the toughest people anyone knew, his grandparents Mamaw and Papaw. By contrast, life in Middletown was unstable: J.D.’s father had abandoned him as a toddler, and his mother cycled through one man after another, bringing chaos into their lives. Jackson offered him a refuge and identity that Middletown did not. He learned early that Appalachian identity is more than an address – it’s “a way of life” rooted in stories, respect, and a fierce sense of belonging. For example, J.D.’s uncles (the Blanton men, Mamaw’s brothers) enthralled him with larger-than-life family legends of heroism and feuds. “These men were the gatekeepers to the family’s oral tradition,” Vance recalls, “and I was their best student.” Listening to their wild tales of fistfights and frontier justice gave J.D. a deep pride in his heritage.

Yet those same tales revealed the violent honor code that ran through his family. Mamaw herself was reputed to have nearly killed a man who tried to steal the family’s cow when she was only 12. She shot at the thief with a shotgun and wounded him – a story told with pride in the family. “There is nothing lower than the poor stealing from the poor,” Mamaw taught J.D., “It’s hard enough as it is. We sure as hell don’t need to make it even harder on each other.”. Such statements capture the hillbilly creed: an intense loyalty to one’s own and a readiness to dispense justice personally. Vance notes that in Breathitt County (“Bloody Breathitt”), taking the law into one’s own hands was practically a tradition. His uncles would boast about forebears who enforced honor with their fists or weapons – legends that portrayed the Vances and Blantons as both good and dangerous people. J.D. cherished these stories, but he also recognizes in hindsight that they exemplified how hillbillies “glorify the good and ignore the bad” in themselves. The same Mamaw who was revered for defending her kin with a gun also cursed like a sailor and had a strict, sometimes explosive temperament that would later shape J.D.’s childhood.

Vance also contrasts the romanticized image of his Appalachian hometown with its harsh present reality. In Jackson, the family always had enough to eat, but not everyone was so lucky. Over the years, Vance observed Jackson’s decline: by the 2000s, about a third of the town lived below the poverty line, an epidemic of opioid and prescription drug addiction ravaged families, and many residents seemed oddly content to remain unemployed. Outsiders’ negative portrayals of Appalachia as backward or broken were angrily dismissed by locals as slanders, yet Vance argues that denial ran deep. People refused to confront problems like addiction and joblessness even as those problems worsened. This “mix of toxic behavior and denial” was no longer confined to remote mountain hollers – it had “gone mainstream” into the Rust Belt towns where hillbillies migrated. Indeed, J.D.’s own family had carried their Appalachian strengths and struggles to Ohio, as the coming chapters show. By the end of Chapter 1, Vance has drawn a vivid picture of his hillbilly childhood: loving and adventurous, but shadowed by poverty and brewing troubles. He invites us to see Jackson and Middletown through his eyes – one a nostalgic sanctuary of “hillbilly royalty,” the other a landscape of economic decay spreading across Middle America.

Chapter 2: Mamaw and Papaw – Hillbilly Royalty in Ohio​

Chapter 2 shifts focus to Vance’s grandparents, Mamaw and Papaw, and their journey from the Kentucky mountains to Ohio’s industrial heartland. Vance idolized Papaw as “hillbilly royalty,” tracing his lineage to the famous Hatfield-McCoy feud – Papaw was a distant cousin of Jim Vance, who helped ignite that legendary clash by killing a McCoy. Violence, it seems, ran on both sides of J.D.’s family. Mamaw’s great-grandfather, for instance, became a local judge only after his son murdered a rival’s family member during an election dispute. These brutal family legends might shock outsiders, but young J.D. felt pride reading about them in old newspapers. “I doubt that any deed would make me as proud as a successful feud,” he quips, half-seriously. Such anecdotes underscore a key theme: hillbilly honor and frontier justice. Vance is illustrating how deeply rooted the notions of toughness and retribution are in his heritage. Papaw and Mamaw’s pedigree gave them clout in Jackson, but it also meant their marriage was forged in that fire of passionate, extreme behavior.

Indeed, Mamaw and Papaw’s own love story began in scandal and drama. They married as impulsive teenagers in Jackson, Kentucky. As Vance discovers, one reason they fled to Ohio was that 14-year-old Mamaw was pregnant when they wed – a source of shame in their devout community. Tragically, that baby did not survive its first week, but economic necessity and pride drove them forward. In the 1950s, lured by plentiful jobs in the booming Midwest, Papaw took a job at Armco Steel in Middletown, Ohio. They joined the great post-war migration often called the “hillbilly highway”: countless Appalachian families moved north for industrial work, bringing their culture with them. Papaw’s company even had a practice of hiring relatives of employees first, which encouraged entire clans to relocate. So Mamaw and Papaw found themselves in a new world – “cut off from the extended Appalachian support network” of back home, yet still surrounded by fellow hillbilly transplants in their Ohio town. They never completely left Jackson behind; as Vance puts it, “My grandparents found themselves in a situation both new and familiar…for the first time cut off from home, yet still surrounded by hillbillies.”. This captures the in-between status of migrant families: they belonged fully to neither place.

Life in Middletown offered prosperity but also prejudice. Vance notes that locals looked down on the flood of Appalachian newcomers, even though they were white like the natives. Hillbilly migrants defied the assumptions of “proper” white behavior – they spoke with heavy Southern accents, kept odd habits (like one neighbor who raised chickens in his yard and butchered them for dinner), and generally unsettled the norms of this Midwestern town. One writer observed that hillbillies “disrupted a broad set of assumptions held by northern whites about how white people appeared, spoke, and behaved”, to the point that the culture clash was as jarring as when Southern black families moved north. In fact, Papaw and Mamaw faced snobbish disdain both from new Ohio neighbors and from back home. Relatives in Kentucky accused them of getting “too big for your britches” – a folksy way of saying they’d abandoned their kin or thought themselves better for leaving. Meanwhile, some Ohioans saw the newcomers as uncouth intruders. Thus, Mamaw and Papaw belonged fully to neither world: not quite assimilated into blue-collar Midwestern society, yet regarded with a bit of suspicion by those they left behind. This tension between deep roots and new soil would shape the family’s identity and struggles.

Despite outsider perceptions, Papaw and Mamaw held fast to the American Dream that brought them north. They truly believed life in Ohio would be better for their kids. Papaw’s union factory job provided a good living, and they raised three children (Vance’s Uncle Jimmy, his Aunt Lori, and his mother, Bev) in what outwardly looked like a stable, middle-class household. Vance recalls that his uncle, as a boy, would watch Leave It to Beaver on TV and remark how similar his family seemed to the wholesome sitcom family. But as Chapter 3 will reveal, that happy veneer hid serious turmoil. Vance foreshadows this by ending Chapter 2 with a sober note: “It didn’t quite work out that way.” Mamaw and Papaw’s dreams for their children ran up against harsh realities – some inflicted by the very hillbilly legacy they carried. Their move to Ohio did lift them out of Appalachian poverty, but it couldn’t erase the cycles of addiction, tempers, and cultural clashes that would soon surface. In sum, Chapter 2 shows the duality of Vance’s grandparents: they are inspiring pioneers who believed in self-reinvention, yet they never entirely escaped the feuds, pride, and “hillbilly royalty” mindset of their past.

Chapter 3: Behind Closed Doors – Violence and Chaos at Home​

On the surface, Mamaw and Papaw achieved the 1950s ideal of a thriving nuclear family. They settled in Middletown, he earned a good union wage at Armco, and they raised their children in a tidy suburban neighborhood. But Chapter 3 peels back that façade to expose the turbulence and trauma lurking in Vance’s mother’s childhood home. While Papaw worked days at the steel mill and Mamaw kept house, their marriage was anything but peaceful. Papaw had a serious drinking problem that fueled explosive fights. Vance recounts telling details: Mamaw’s children learned to watch how Papaw parked his car each evening. If he parked perfectly straight, he was sober and the night would be calm. If the car was crooked, he was drunk, and young Bev (Vance’s mom) and her sister Lori knew trouble was coming – often slipping out the back door to a friend’s house to escape the inevitable screaming match. Such anecdotes paint a stark picture of walking on eggshells. The Vance household oscillated between sitcom normalcy and impending violence, depending on Papaw’s whiskey intake.

Mamaw, for her part, was just as fiery sober as Papaw was drunk. She could dish out startling retribution for Papaw’s bad behavior. Vance shares jaw-dropping family lore: once, Papaw fell asleep drunk on the couch after Mamaw had warned him never to come home drunk again. In response, Mamaw doused him in gasoline and lit a match. Papaw’s own daughter (Vance’s Aunt Lori) quickly smothered the flames, so Papaw escaped with only minor burns, but the incident is legendary – a darkly comic example of hillbilly marital justice. Another time, Mamaw, fed up with Papaw’s demands for dinner, cooked an entire pot of garbage and served it to him as a “meal”. She even used to cut the crotch out of Papaw’s pants while he slept, so that when he stood up in the morning his pants fell apart, humiliating him. These outrageous stories elicit shock, but Vance tells them with a dose of humor and affection. They show Mamaw’s zero-tolerance policy for disrespect, even from her husband. As Vance comments dryly, “My people were extreme, but extreme in the service of something.” In Mamaw’s case, that “something” was protecting her family’s honor and sanity – at any cost.

Unsurprisingly, the marriage eventually disintegrated. After the gasoline incident, Mamaw and Papaw effectively separated (she moved to a separate house down the street), although they remained a team when it came to supporting their kids and grandkids. Papaw did quit drinking in his later years, and a kind of truce was reached. But by then, the damage to their children was evident. Vance notes that all three of Mamaw and Papaw’s kids were scarred by the “vicious circle of intrafamilial violence” they grew up with. The eldest, Uncle Jimmy, escaped by marrying young and jumping straight into a steady job at Armco like Papaw did – a seemingly stable life, though it insulated him from addressing the family’s dysfunction. Lori (Vance’s aunt) wasn’t so lucky at first – she nearly died of a drug overdose as a teenager, dropped out of school, and entered an abusive marriage that eerily mirrored her parents’ turbulent union. (In time Lori turned her life around, but not without hardship.) And then there was Bev, Vance’s mother: the youngest child and arguably the one most destabilized by her upbringing. By age 18, Bev had become an unmarried mother (giving birth to Vance’s older sister, Lindsay) and was spiraling into the same patterns of volatility and substance abuse she’d witnessed at home.

In this chapter, Vance invites us to empathize with how chaos breeds chaos across generations. He notes that despite Papaw and Mamaw’s hopes, their optimistic belief in the American Dream couldn’t shield their kids from the fallout of domestic trauma. Mamaw and Papaw truly loved their children and wanted them to succeed – Papaw especially doted on young J.D. as a grandson – but the contradictions in their parenting were stark. For example, Mamaw instilled strong values in her kids (like fierce loyalty to siblings). She once admonished a feuding relative, “In five years you won’t even remember his goddamned name. But your sister is the only true friend you’ll ever have.”. This advice to stick by family no matter what was heartfelt. Yet, at the same time, family life was the source of their worst pain. By the end of Chapter 3, we see clearly how Vance’s mother, Bev, became who she was: a product of love and violence, devotion and disorder. The stage is set for Bev to take center stage in the coming chapters, as she carries both the tenderness and the turmoil of her parents into the next generation of the Vance family.

Chapter 4: Middletown in Decline – A New Generation’s Struggles​

In Chapter 4, Vance zooms out to examine Middletown, Ohio – the environment where he grew up – and how it changed from Papaw’s time to his own. Middletown was once a thriving industrial town anchored by Armco Steel, but by J.D.’s youth in the 1990s and 2000s, it had entered a steep decline. Vance recalls sorting the town into three areas in his mind as a kid: the wealthy neighborhood of “rich kids,” the housing projects near the steel mill (mostly poor whites on one side and poor blacks on the other), and the working-class section where his family lived. Looking back, he isn’t even sure there was much difference between his “ordinary” block and the truly destitute areas – it might have been a child’s wishful thinking that his family wasn’t as poor as some others. In any case, the line between blue-collar respectability and outright poverty in Middletown was blurring. By Vance’s adolescence, the downtown was full of empty storefronts, payday loan shops, and pawn brokers, “little more than a relic of American industrial glory.” What happened? Vance points to broader economic shifts and misguided policies: factories closed or merged (Armco was bought by Kawasaki Steel in 1989 and became AK Steel, angering locals who resented foreign ownership). This globalization shock left many of the men of Papaw’s generation feeling betrayed by a changing world.

At the same time, Vance argues, rising residential segregation worsened Middletown’s decline. Federal pushes for homeownership (like the Community Reinvestment Act under Carter and later initiatives under Bush) had unintended consequences. When housing prices fell, working-class families became trapped in neighborhoods that were once decent but were now deteriorating. People who could move to better areas did so, leaving behind concentrated pockets of poverty. In other words, the “bad neighborhoods” were no longer just an inner-city phenomenon – they had spread to the suburbs and small towns. Vance doesn’t mince words in criticizing some neighbors’ attitudes either. He recalls a Middletown High teacher telling him about kids with “big dreams” who refused to put in the work – like wannabe athletes who quit the team because they thought the coach was too hard on them. Many in J.D.’s generation, he notes, grew up taking Armco’s past prosperity for granted. They did not share their grandparents’ work ethic or humility, often blaming others for their setbacks. Vance even observes that some working-class folks talk about working hard more than they actually work – a form of self-deception he finds rampant. He cites a report claiming working-class whites logged more hours than college-educated ones, calling it “demonstrably false” – the reality was people said they were working a lot, but it wasn’t backed by data.

In the midst of Middletown’s troubles, Vance highlights a crucial saving grace in his own life: Mamaw’s influence. Despite her coarse manners and ferocious temper, Mamaw was determined that J.D. not succumb to the surrounding apathy. She made sure he had books at home and that he studied. One formative memory: in elementary school, J.D. was embarrassed to realize he hadn’t learned multiplication while other kids had. Papaw (who was still alive then) noticed J.D.’s frustration and promptly sat him down before dinner to teach him multiplication himself. The lesson stuck. Vance reflects, “despite all of the environmental pressures from my neighborhood and community, I received a different message at home. And that just might have saved me.”. This is a powerful insight – family support as a counterweight to a failing community. Indeed, Mamaw often told J.D. that his generation would “make its living with their minds, not their hands,” encouraging his aspirations beyond the factory floor. But it was difficult, as neither she nor Papaw had finished high school themselves. Still, their insistence on valuing education gave J.D. a glimmer of direction that many of his peers lacked. His grades wavered in his teens, but the foundation – the idea that he could rise above – was laid during this time.

By the end of Chapter 4, Vance paints a melancholy yet instructive picture of Middletown. The town’s decline illustrates the collapse of the American Dream in rust belt communities. Factories leaving, jobs dwindling, and neighborhoods decaying all set the backdrop for the personal dramas in his family. It also clarifies one of Vance’s central arguments: external factors (like economic change) matter, but culture and attitude play a big role too. He sees many neighbors falling into a culture of blame and learned helplessness. But in his own case, the tough love at home – Papaw drilling him on math, Mamaw calling out any hint of laziness (“stop being a lazy piece of shit” was her loving scold when he shirked chores) – helped inoculate him against the prevailing despair. Chapter 4 thus bridges the social context and Vance’s personal trajectory. It shows how a town’s story and one boy’s story intersect, reinforcing the memoir’s theme that individual success or failure often hinges on having even a single supportive “safety net” in the midst of chaos.

Chapter 5: Mom’s Chaos – “The Demons of Life We Left Behind”​

In Chapter 5, the focus shifts squarely to Vance’s mother, Bev, and his early childhood with her. It’s a harrowing chapter, detailing the cycles of instability, brief calms, and sudden violence that defined J.D.’s youth. Vance admits he has few memories before age seven, but one stands out in sharp relief: the day he learned his biological father was giving him up for adoption. Little J.D. was devastated – “It was the saddest I had ever felt,” he writes. After his dad relinquished custody, the man “became kind of a phantom” in J.D.’s life for the next six years. This loss was quickly followed by a new father figure: “Dad” number two was Bob Hamel, Bev’s new husband and the man who would adopt J.D. and give him the last name Hamel for a time. Bob initially provided some stability – he had a steady trucking job – but he also grated on Mamaw. To Mamaw, Bob was “a walking hillbilly stereotype” (he had bad teeth from too much Mountain Dew, and a rough, unpolished demeanor) and thus not good enough for her daughter. Mamaw had always expected her children to “marry up,” to find well-groomed, middle-class spouses, and Bob didn’t fit that image. This reveals a poignant tension in Mamaw: despite her own coarse hillbilly ways, she wanted Bev to escape that world by association.

For a brief period, things actually went well. Bev and Bob moved into a place near Mamaw, earned decent incomes, and doted on J.D. and his sister Lindsay. Vance recalls his mom’s intelligence and enthusiasm for learning during this calmer phase. Bev was actually her high school class salutatorian (second in class), and she tried to spark J.D.’s mind early. She encouraged his love of football by reading about game strategy with him, even building a makeshift football field out of paper and using coins as players to diagram plays. “We didn’t have chess, but we did have football,” Vance quips, illustrating how Bev turned whatever resources they had into a learning opportunity. She was, in J.D.’s eyes, “the smartest person I knew” and a believer in the power of education. On the other hand, Mamaw was teaching J.D. lessons of a different sort: how to fight and when to fight. In southwest Ohio’s rough-and-tumble culture, Mamaw insisted on loyalty and toughness. She told young J.D. never to start a fight – “but always finish it” if someone else started one. The one exception: if someone insulted your family, you may start the fight to defend their honor (though Mamaw later half-retracted this rule). Violence, in Mamaw’s code, was sometimes the answer, especially to protect the weak or bullied. These contradictory influences – Bev’s cerebral nurturing and Mamaw’s combat training – both lived in J.D. as a child.

Unfortunately, the “good years” didn’t last. Bev and Bob’s marriage descended into screaming fights and physical altercations, much like the home she’d grown up in. They moved about 30 minutes away from Middletown for a fresh start, but the move only isolated Bev from her support system (Mamaw and Papaw) and worsened her temper. Bev could be as aggressive as Mamaw when provoked – J.D. recalls her storming the soccer field and yanking another mom’s hair in the middle of one of his youth games because the woman insulted his playing. “I beamed with pride,” he admits of that incident. To a child, a mother literally fighting for him felt like love. But at home, J.D. began to suffer the stress of constant conflict. His grades slipped and he developed stomach issues from anxiety (common “stress reactions” in kids from chaotic homes). He even intervened in one brawl by punching his stepfather Bob in the face when Bob and Bev were tussling – a shocking act for a pre-teen, essentially taking on the role of family protector. J.D. had fully absorbed Mamaw’s hillbilly justice: if a man was hurting his mom, even her son might “end the fight.”

The family meltdown reached a terrifying crescendo one afternoon when J.D. was around 12. In the car together, he made an offhand remark that infuriated his mother (the exact trigger is unclear, but Bev’s moods were brittle). She began driving recklessly, threatening to crash the car and kill them both. Panicking as the car sped, J.D. tried to calm her, but when Bev pulled over and lunged to hit him, he bolted from the car and ran to a stranger’s house for help. Banging on a random door, he breathlessly told the homeowner, “my mom is trying to kill me.” Soon police arrived, and Bev was arrested. This was an unprecedented crisis – so much so that when Papaw (still alive then) saw J.D. afterward, he broke down crying, pressing his forehead to his grandson’s and weeping openly (the only time J.D. ever saw Papaw cry). The family closed ranks; Mamaw, furious and protective, agreed to take in J.D. permanently. In court, however, J.D. lied on the stand, saying his mother hadn’t threatened him. He couldn’t bear the thought of sending her to prison. Thanks to that lie, Bev avoided jail time – but J.D. went to live full-time with Mamaw from then on, with Mamaw essentially becoming his guardian. When Bev protested this arrangement, Mamaw allegedly told her daughter she “could talk to the barrel of [Mamaw’s] gun” if she had a problem with it. In short, Mamaw literally stood guard to ensure J.D.’s safety, even if it meant threatening her own child.

This chapter also touches on the class and cultural chasm that J.D. began to perceive as a child. During the legal proceedings after his mother’s arrest, he noticed the social workers, lawyers, and judge seemed like a different species – well-dressed, speaking in educated tones (“TV accents”, as he calls them) – while he and other families in juvenile court wore old sweatpants and had thick local accents. “Identity is an odd thing,” Vance muses; at the time he didn’t fully grasp why he felt a kinship with the other scruffy families in court, only that they were “like us.”. A week later, visiting his Uncle Jimmy in California, young J.D. was told he “sounded like he was from Kentucky.” He realized then that his hillbilly culture had stamped itself on him – in his voice, his mannerisms – no matter where he went. This awareness of being different from mainstream Americans started here and would intensify later. But the immediate takeaway of Chapter 5 is the trauma and loyalty that defined his relationship with his mom. Vance neither spares her failings (drug use, violent outbursts) nor denies the love that still persisted beneath the wreckage. As he leaves to live with Mamaw, he is a kid from a broken home carrying scars that will follow him – or as he put it earlier, “the demons of the life we left behind continue to chase us.” Chapter 5 ends with the hope that Mamaw’s household will be a safe haven, but also the implicit question: Can J.D. truly escape the chaos that formed him?

Chapter 6: Blood Ties and New Beginnings – Fathers, Faith, and Finding Stability​

Now under Mamaw’s roof, J.D. experiences a period of relative calm and reflection in Chapter 6. One focus is his relationship with his older half-sister, Lindsay, and the siblings’ resilience amid family turmoil. Vance credits Lindsay as a constant caretaker throughout his life: “in the many moments when Mom was absent or abusive, Lindsay raised me.” He was shocked as a boy to learn Lindsay was technically only his half-sister (they share a mother, different fathers) – it was “one of the most devastating moments” of his life to think they weren’t 100% blood siblings. This detail underscores how deeply J.D. relies on Lindsay; their bond is a pure source of stability. One anecdote shows Lindsay’s dreams deferred: the family all pitched in to help her in a youth modeling competition, and she won a local round. But when she qualified for the next stage in New York City, they realized they couldn’t afford the trip or fees. The car ride home was filled with heartbreaking disappointment – Lindsay sobbed, Bev lashed out in frustration, Mamaw cursed fate. That night, J.D. asked Mamaw a child’s innocent question: “Does God really love us?” seeing how cruel the outcome was after Lindsay had tried so hard. Mamaw, a devout believer in her own unconventional way, was wounded by the question and cried. Though she rarely attended church, Mamaw had a deep faith that God “never left our side.” J.D.’s doubt – wondering if there was “some deeper justice” in a world of such heartache – shook her. This moment shows a young Vance wrestling with theodicy (why bad things happen to good people), and Mamaw herself feeling the sting of that doubt. It’s a tender scene of two people who have been through so much asking, What’s the meaning of all this pain?

During this time, J.D. also undergoes changes in his paternal relationships. By his 11th birthday, his adoptive dad Bob Hamel had drifted out of his life completely – “the icing on the cake of a long line of failed paternal candidates,” Vance notes wryly. Bob simply stopped taking J.D.’s calls after the divorce from Bev, effectively abandoning him. Vance tries to understand his mother’s motivations in constantly seeking new men: partly she craved companionship, but he believes she also truly wanted positive male role models for her kids. Tragically, the lesson he and Lindsay actually learned was that men “merely drink beer, scream, and eventually leave”. So by middle school, J.D. had no father figure at all – until an unexpected reconnection occurred. Out of the blue, Bev called J.D.’s biological father, Don Bowman, and Don expressed interest in seeing his son again. Thus, “in the same summer my legal father walked out, my biological one walked back in,” Vance writes. This reconnection proved surprisingly positive. Don lived in rural Kentucky in a peaceful farmhouse with a pond and farm animals – an idyllic setting to a kid from chaotic Middletown. More importantly, Don had radically transformed since his youth: once an alleged abuser and religious fanatic (according to family lore), he was now a gentle born-again Christian with a stable marriage and kids. He attended a strict Pentecostal church regularly and never raised his voice in front of J.D..

J.D. was initially wary – he’d heard the worst about Don from Mamaw and others. But the man he got to know was kind and calm. Vance took to his father’s faith, immersing himself in church activities. He threw away his heavy metal CDs and even engaged in online apologetics debates, defending creationism and the Bible to strangers on the internet. For a time, young J.D. became extremely devout, arguably using religion as a new anchor. He learned that Don had given him up for adoption not out of lack of love, but because Don believed a custody fight with Bev would tear J.D. apart emotionally. In Don’s telling, he had prayed for signs from God on what to do, and took J.D.’s adoption by Bob as divine direction. Vance still resented being “given away,” but for the first time he understood his father’s perspective and felt some empathy. This period with his dad also taught J.D. about “regular churchgoers” and the potential benefits of religious community. He notes a sociological point: people who truly attend church frequently tend to be happier and more successful, likely because of the support and positive habits church can reinforce. However, he also observes an irony: in the Bible Belt, many claim church membership but rarely go. Thus, the folks who might most need that supportive community often don’t actually engage with it, leaving them without the benefits of faith’s social capital.

Despite his new Christian zeal, J.D. eventually saw the flaws in fear-based religion. He recalls how the evangelical environment started making him paranoid and judgmental. At one point, after listening to a fundamentalist radio show, 9-year-old J.D. became briefly convinced he might be gay – simply because he enjoyed hanging out with his male friend Bill more than with girls (a typical phase for a child, but the preacher’s dire tone made him panic). Mamaw reassured him kindly that he wasn’t gay, but also added that even if he was, “God would still love you.”. This is revealing: tough old Mamaw, for all her profanity and brashness, had a fundamentally unconditional love for her grandson. She both comforted him and affirmed he’d be accepted regardless. This acceptance was in contrast to the fire-and-brimstone messaging he was absorbing at church. Vance came to realize that the intense fear of sin and Hell being preached was counterproductive. It made the world seem scarier than it needed to be, and he suspects that this “fear-mongering” is why many kids raised in evangelical churches do not stay – it drives them away. By the end of Chapter 6, Vance has a broadened perspective: he has one foot in the fundamentalist Christian world via his dad and another still in Mamaw’s more freewheeling but authentic value system. He’s learned that love can come from unexpected places (his once-absent father) and that stability sometimes arrives in forms you wouldn’t predict (a church in a small Kentucky town). Perhaps most significantly, he is beginning to untangle the threads of identity – family, faith, name. After Bob’s exit, Vance even muses on having “too many names” – his mother’s series of marriages left him with multiple last names and a confused sense of self (Bowman, then Hamel, then back to Vance, Mamaw’s maiden name). This foreshadows his quest in later chapters to firmly claim his Vance identity and make peace with his roots. In short, Chapter 6 is about healing and identity formation: J.D. finds new fatherly love, embraces religion then questions it, and learns that even in a tumultuous family, moments of grace and clarity can emerge.

Chapter 7: Loss of Papaw and the Unraveling Aftermath​

Chapter 7 marks a heartbreaking turning point: the death of Papaw (J.D.’s grandfather) and the immediate fallout for the family. When Vance was thirteen, Papaw died suddenly at home of likely a heart attack. The chapter opens with a gut-wrenching scene: Mamaw calls J.D. one night, voice panicked, saying no one can reach Papaw and something’s wrong. J.D., his mom Bev, and Mamaw rush to Papaw’s house, only to find that their beloved patriarch had passed away alone. The shock and grief are immense. Mamaw assigns J.D. the task of breaking the news to Lindsay, who wasn’t home. When Lindsay arrives, she and J.D. collapse in tears on the floor together. Vance’s description makes it clear: Papaw wasn’t just a grandfather; he was a father figure, protector, and source of unconditional love in a world that often lacked those things.

The family’s mourning process reveals how much Papaw meant. He gets two visitations/funerals – one in Ohio and one back in Jackson, Kentucky – symbolizing his life straddling both worlds. Vance poignantly notes, “Even in death, Papaw had one foot in Ohio and another in the holler.” At the funeral, local custom invites anyone to speak about the departed. J.D. is overwhelmed with memories and emotion. He remembers Papaw teaching him to shoot a gun with near-military precision, Papaw frantically searching for young J.D. with a loaded .44 Magnum when he thought the boy had gone missing at a funeral years prior (an example of Papaw’s fierce devotion), and most of all Papaw’s guiding principle: “the measure of a man is how he treats the women in his family.” To J.D., Papaw embodied that creed – despite his faults, Papaw was the one who always came through for his daughter and grandkids. Summoning courage, J.D. stands up at the service and says simply, “He was the best dad that anyone could ever ask for.” In that eulogy, Vance cements Papaw’s legacy as his dad, emotionally speaking. It’s a title Papaw earned by always being there when things fell apart.

Papaw’s death, however, leaves a gaping hole in the family’s fragile equilibrium. Mamaw, normally a pillar of toughness, is unmoored by losing her husband of nearly 40 years (despite their separation, they remained deeply connected). J.D. finds Mamaw at the funeral home hiding in a corner, staring at the floor in a daze – a highly uncharacteristic sight for the formidable woman who usually took charge. Bev (J.D.’s mom) takes it worst of all. Papaw had been her primary lifeline, even as her addiction worsened; without him, she spirals. Vance observes that something “veered off course” in the days after Papaw’s funeral. His mother’s temper, already volatile, becomes completely unhinged. She goes around lashing out, strangely resentful of anyone else mourning Papaw as if her grief is the only valid grief. In one disturbing episode, J.D. comes home one morning to find Bev on her porch wearing nothing but a bath towel, having cut her wrists, screaming at her boyfriend, her friend Tammy, and even Lindsay all at once. It’s a scene of utter emotional breakdown. Bev is quickly taken away by police and placed into a rehab facility (the Cincinnati Center for Addiction Treatment, which J.D. darkly notes the family nicknamed the “CAT house”). Vance explicitly states the truth: Papaw’s death “turned a semi-functioning addict into a woman unable to follow the basic norms of adult behavior.” In other words, Bev goes from barely holding it together to completely falling apart once her father – her last anchor – is gone.

With their mother in rehab, J.D. and Lindsay essentially fend for themselves under Mamaw’s roof. Mamaw, now over 70 and in declining health, does her best to take care of them, but J.D. notes that he and his sister became “almost totally independent” during this time – cooking their own meals, handling school matters (Lindsay would sign notes pretending to be Bev when needed). The family even contemplates sending J.D. away to live with Uncle Jimmy in California for stability, but that doesn’t come to pass immediately. Instead, they rally around weekly visits to Bev’s rehab. Those sessions are ironically supposed to be therapeutic, but often devolve into arguments. At one such group therapy, Bev blames her drug use on the stress of bills and her father’s death (excuses that ring hollow to her kids). Lindsay, for the first time in her life, speaks up to confront their mother – she angrily tells Bev that by wallowing in pills, Bev neglected her children and stole their chance to properly grieve Papaw’s death. This is a breakthrough moment: quiet, dutiful Lindsay finally sets a boundary with Mom, indicating she’s grown into an adult unwilling to be victimized. J.D. watches in awe, seeing his sister’s strength in a new light.

After a few months, Bev is released and returns home. She makes a show of practicing recovery techniques (reciting rehab-taught prayers or platitudes) and tells J.D. that addiction is a “disease” she has to battle. J.D., a teenager by now, feels deep skepticism at this framing. Yes, he acknowledges, science shows genetics and trauma contribute to addiction (addiction does have disease-like qualities). But he also notes research that those addicts who consider themselves diseased are statistically less likely to truly quit. To him, calling it a disease sounds like an excuse to surrender agency. This reflects a tension in Vance’s thinking: empathy for the psychological roots of suffering, but a belief in personal responsibility as crucial to change. He’s angry at his mom, but also trying to parse how much blame to give her vs. her upbringing (a question he will explicitly pose in a later chapter). At this stage, his anger predominates – he doesn’t want to let her off the hook by saying “she can’t help it.”

One enlightening (and darkly comic) anecdote from this chapter involves J.D.’s attendance at Narcotics Anonymous meetings with his mom. He describes one NA meeting where a scruffy man attended purely because it was a cold night and the meeting room was warm. The man openly admitted he had no intent to quit drugs; he just wanted shelter. He then mentioned he was from Owsley County, Kentucky – which, J.D. later realizes, is right near where Mamaw and Papaw grew up. The coincidence floored Vance: here was a fellow Appalachian, possibly a distant neighbor of his family’s homeland, adrift and homeless due to addiction, showing up just for free coffee and heat. It’s a poignant illustration of how small the world of hillbilly woes can be – the problems of Jackson, KY and Middletown, OH converged in that meeting room. J.D. is struck by how even far from the mountains, he keeps encountering the same pathologies among his people.

In sum, Chapter 7 is about loss and its ripple effects. Papaw’s passing removes the keystone from the arch of J.D.’s family structure. Everything threatens to crumble: Bev descends into her worst state yet, Mamaw is aging and can’t singlehandedly shoulder everyone, and the kids have to grow up fast. Yet, glimmers of resilience appear – Lindsay finding her voice, J.D. solidifying his resolve to not follow in his mother’s footsteps. The chapter ends with Vance noting how his mother, after rehab, still struggled and eventually relapsed again (the seeds for her later problems are clearly sown). It sets the stage for J.D.’s final years of high school in Mamaw’s custody, where his decisions will determine if he breaks free of this cycle or becomes just another victim of it.

Chapter 8: Teenage Turbulence – Bouncing Between Homes and Heading Off Track​

Chapter 8 chronicles J.D.’s mid-teen years, a time when he bounces between various living situations and teeters on the edge of personal failure. It begins on a hopeful note: the summer before he starts high school, life seems relatively stable. Bev has been sober for about a year following her rehab stint, and she has a steady boyfriend named Matt (who had supported her through Papaw’s death). Mamaw is feeling a bit better, even taking some small vacations. Lindsay has married a kind man and had a baby, bringing some joy. And J.D. himself is doing well in school for the moment. For a brief moment, normalcy seems within reach.

That calm is soon shattered by Bev’s next big decision: she announces that she and Matt are moving to Dayton (45 minutes away) and that J.D. will have to move with them – meaning leaving his hometown, his friends, and worst of all leaving Mamaw. J.D. reacts with immediate rebellion: “Absolutely not,” he blurts out, and storms away in anger. Being 14 and afraid to lose the one constant (Mamaw), he digs his heels in. Bev interprets his anger not as legitimate hurt, but as evidence that her son has “anger issues” and needs therapy. So she drags him to a counselor. The first therapy session is a disaster – the therapist, having only heard Bev’s side, accuses J.D. of throwing tantrums and disrespecting his mother, catching him off guard. Feeling ambushed, J.D. finally unleashes his side of the story. He recounts to the therapist the years of family chaos, instability, and abuse he’s endured. This shifts the dynamic: the therapist realizes there’s more to the picture and suggests one-on-one sessions with J.D.. In private, J.D. confesses his deep sense of feeling trapped. Papaw is gone, Lindsay has grown up and moved out, and Mamaw – a lifelong smoker now struggling with emphysema – may not be able to raise him much longer. He even floats the idea that maybe he should live with his biological dad, Don, since things with Mom are so strained. It’s a rare moment of vulnerability where J.D. voices the fear that there’s no safe place left for him if Mamaw isn’t an option.

His revelation sets off a debate in the family. Many relatives think he should just stay full-time with Mamaw (they see she’s his rock), but J.D. is terrified of burdening Mamaw any further. Mamaw is elderly and in poor health; J.D. fears that leaning on her could literally kill her (a prescient fear, given she only has a few years left to live). So, as painful as it is, J.D. decides to try living with his dad in Kentucky for a while. He moves in with Don and finds a peculiarly normal life there – “peaceful, normal, even boring” is how he describes his father’s household. They spend quiet evenings grilling steaks, fishing in the pond, feeding horses; no one is screaming or throwing things. To a kid from the Vance family, this tranquility is almost alien. Yet, J.D. can’t fully relax. “What I never lost was the sense of being on guard,” he admits. Because Don is deeply religious and somewhat strict, J.D. constantly self-censors. He’s afraid to ask his dad tough questions (like reconciling faith with science) or to share harmless interests (like the fantasy card game Magic: The Gathering he enjoys) for fear of judgment. The pressure to conform and not disappoint his father builds up. After a period of trying, J.D. feels he just can’t be himself at Don’s home – it’s “too good” in a way, but not his life. Overwhelmed by homesickness for Mamaw and craving the freedom to be a normal teen, he calls his sister Lindsay to come get him. When he breaks the news to Don, his dad is heartbroken but understanding. In fact, Don half-jokes, “You can’t stay away from that crazy grandma of yours. I know she’s good to you.”. It’s a touching acknowledgement that even Don sees the unique bond between J.D. and Mamaw – and implicitly, a compliment to how well Mamaw raised him. So J.D. spends the rest of that summer back in Mamaw’s home, which remains his “safety valve” in turbulent times.

Ultimately, J.D. agrees to give living with his mom one more shot – with conditions. He’ll move with Bev (who by now has split with Matt) if he can continue attending his same high school in Middletown and see Mamaw regularly. Bev agrees. However, in a dramatic twist, J.D. returns from school one day to a bombshell: Bev cheerfully announces she’s getting married again, but not to Matt – to a new man named Ken. It turns out that in the span of one week, Bev went on a date with her boss (Ken), got engaged, and now they’re moving in with Ken and his three kids immediately. This is yet another whiplash-inducing change for J.D. They move into Ken’s house two days later, blending families overnight. Ken’s teenage children are not pleased, especially his oldest son, who openly resents Bev’s presence. When that stepbrother calls Bev a “bitch”, J.D.’s hillbilly honor code ignites – he attacks the boy and threatens to beat him “within an inch of his life” if he insults Bev again. It’s ironic: J.D. can hate his mother and curse her in private, but if an outsider disrespects her, he reacts exactly as Mamaw taught – with fists to defend family honor. The result of this confrontation is predictable: the household becomes even more miserable.

By his sophomore year of high school, J.D. is in a very dark place. He describes himself as a “miserable, frustrated kid” with terrible grades and attendance. His GPA is a dismal 2.1, and he’s skipped so much school he’s at risk of truancy charges. He’s started drinking alcohol and smoking marijuana, numbing his anger and stress. Worst of all, he feels a distance from Lindsay for the first time – she has escaped into a happy marriage and motherhood, while he feels stuck in all the problems she ran away from. J.D. is essentially on the brink of becoming a statistic: another dysfunctional, dropout-prone hillbilly teen. The chapter’s analysis underscores that this is the crisis point for Vance – he has “too many homes” (constantly moving between Mom’s, Dad’s, Mamaw’s, etc.) and thus feels he has no real home or stable identity. It’s an ironic predicament: many kids fear having nowhere to go, but J.D. had too many places he was shuffled between, which left him feeling trapped and unsettled. The one constant, Mamaw’s house, felt like it could be taken from him at any moment (like when Bev tried to move him away). This is why Mamaw’s home was so crucial – he describes it as a “safety net” or “safety valve” that he relied on to survive. Whenever life with Mom became unbearable, he could run to Mamaw’s. But the threat of losing that refuge threw him into panic and depression.

Chapter 8 closes with Vance at a low ebb. It’s the classic scenario of a youth in free-fall: wrong crowd, academic failure, substance use, bottled rage. Readers can see that something needs to intervene to change J.D.’s trajectory, or he’s headed down the same road that left so many of his kin impoverished or in jail. That “something” will arrive in Chapter 9 and beyond, largely in the form of Mamaw’s final heroic effort to straighten him out. Chapter 8, therefore, is the setup for redemption – it paints J.D. as an “at-risk” kid who almost succumbed to his environment, illustrating just how precarious his fate was at 16. It also highlights again the theme that home = Mamaw. No matter whose roof he lived under temporarily, real safety and unconditional support only ever came from his grandmother. As long as she lives, J.D. has a fighting chance.

Chapter 9: Mamaw’s Final Stand – Saving J.D. from the Brink​

At the start of Chapter 9, J.D. is back living full-time with Mamaw, a change that proves to be the lifeline he desperately needs. The catalyst was an incident that perfectly captures Bev’s dysfunction. One day, Bev bursts into Mamaw’s house frantically demanding J.D.’s urine – she needed “clean” urine to pass a drug test at work because she had relapsed into using drugs. This was the last straw for J.D. All the pent-up frustration and resentment toward his mother exploded. He refused outright, telling Bev angrily to stop “f—ing up her own life and get [the urine] from her own bladder”, even yelling at Mamaw that she’d been a “shitty mother” for enabling Bev’s behavior. The profanity-laced tirade was shocking and clearly hurt Mamaw, but it also marked a turning point: J.D. was done being complicit in his mom’s lies. Mamaw, ever hopeful, still pleaded with J.D. to comply “just this once” – “Maybe if we help her this time she’ll finally learn her lesson,” Mamaw said, showing her enduring (if naive) hope for her daughter. J.D. was astonished at Mamaw’s capacity to forgive people who continually let her down. Against his own judgment, he relented and gave the urine sample. But in exchange, it seems, a new understanding was reached: Bev essentially ceded J.D.’s upbringing entirely to Mamaw at this point. Bev needed “a break” from being a mother (an inadvertent blessing), and for the first time, J.D.’s move to Mamaw’s became permanent.

With J.D. finally in a stable home environment free from stepfathers and chaos, Mamaw set about enforcing structure and discipline that had long been lacking. This wasn’t a gentle process. Mamaw’s parenting style could be described as tough-love at best, outright harsh at worst. She demanded J.D. do chores and keep to basic responsibilities, and she did not sugarcoat her commands. “If I didn’t take out the garbage, she told me to ‘stop being a lazy piece of shit,’” Vance recalls bluntly. Her constant insults for minor slacking might sound abusive, but Vance retrospectively understands that Mamaw believed in him and wanted him to develop good habits. In fact, relatives later told J.D. they thought Mamaw was too hard on him, though he mostly remembers the fun and love mixed in with her foul-mouthed scoldings. In these years, J.D. and Mamaw formed a tight little household of two. They watched The Sopranos together endlessly – Mamaw adored the mafia don character Tony Soprano because “he would go to any length to protect the honor of his family,” which resonated with her hillbilly values. They also often babysat Lindsay’s kids and J.D.’s young cousins, giving Mamaw great joy (and amusement when the toddlers would repeat her cuss words back to her). J.D. finally began to feel like a normal teenager in some respects: he had friends at school he could invite over (though he admits he hid the fact that he lived with his grandma, out of embarrassment at not having a “normal” family). Crucially, Mamaw rarely brought up Bev or the past; she focused on pushing J.D. forward.

The effect on J.D.’s academics and outlook was dramatic. He soon tested into an honors Advanced Math class taught by an inspiring teacher, Mr. Ron Selby. Selby was a local legend – the kind of teacher who, when a student tried to disrupt an exam by calling in a fake bomb threat, tossed the “bomb” (actually a clock) in the trash and quipped that the kid wasn’t smart enough to make a real bomb anyway. This no-nonsense dedication impressed J.D. Mamaw was delighted to see him excited about learning; she even scraped together her meager funds to buy him a pricey graphing calculator for the class. Owning that calculator made J.D. proud and motivated – he didn’t want to waste Mamaw’s investment. J.D. later reflects, “Those three years with Mamaw—uninterrupted and alone—saved me.” When he moved in with her permanently, his grades steadily improved, his attendance rebounded, and he re-engaged socially at school. He even got his first job, as a cashier at Dillman’s, a local grocery store. In short, Mamaw’s home became the incubator of J.D.’s turnaround.

Working at Dillman’s grocery also provided J.D. with an unexpected education in social class and behaviors. He calls himself an “amateur sociologist” observing customer habits from behind the register. For instance, he noticed that hurried, overworked people (usually poorer folks juggling jobs or kids) bought more frozen and prepared foods – convenience trumped cost or nutrition. He also noticed a subtle injustice: the store owners let some trusted (usually better-off) customers run monthly tabs for groceries, essentially giving them informal credit, but J.D. knew his own family or neighbors would never be extended such trust. It irked him, highlighting how the poor are often viewed with suspicion even in small ways. Conversely, he saw how some people on welfare gamed the system – a classic example was those who bought soda in bulk with food stamps and then resold it for cash or drugs. He even recounts the resentment he felt seeing a neighbor on welfare buying T-bone steaks with food stamps, when as a working teen he couldn’t afford such luxuries. These observations crystallized a shift in both J.D. and Mamaw. Mamaw, a lifelong Democrat who believed in a social safety net, began sounding more like a Republican at times – railing against neighbors she saw as freeloaders. “Depending on her mood, Mamaw was a radical conservative or a European-style Social Democrat,” Vance wryly notes. What he realizes is that her political swings weren’t ideological so much as emotional: she was heartbroken and angry to see the same poverty she fled in Kentucky recreating itself in Ohio. She hated seeing people squander opportunities or become dependent, especially when they reminded her of their own family.